Sunday, Sept. 13, 2009
Still congested, still can't sleep
6:16 A.M. CST
I have woken up once again from a 4 hour reverie of drowsiness to be coughing and congested once again. My cold and mood meds work up until a point, and then I'm left to deal with everything sort of unprotected until my next round of meds again, which I won't take until I have breakfast, which won't be for another couple of hours because 1) I'm not hungry, and 2), I haven't had my blood sugar tested yet.
Yesterday was an amazing day. I saw A Beautiful Mind with Lily, Lindsey, and Andrea and then we all went to the Wolf Ranch shopping center down the road and ate at Chick-Fil-A and I actually did not have waffle fries, which was amazingly shocking for me. Then we went to Kohl's and they had the most amazing deals. I hadn't even intended to go and buy anything, just to look, because Andrea had suggested it, but then there were all these bargains that were just meant for me. Like $50 pants for $10 and $80 heels for $10. I also got a lot of nice jewelry for less than $5 a piece. It was amazing. Andrea splurged and got a really nice dress that was almost the price of my entire purchase. It's white with a solid black midsection. It's kind of springtime like, but with leggings, boots, and a cute cropped jacket, it could easily be done for Fall and Winter.
Then we all went back to our respective apartments and worked on projects until 8 P.M. when I saw Lily, Georgia, Leslie, Giulia, and Marie (other mutual friends) at Southwestern's Cinematic Saturday premiere of Disney Pixar's UP, which is an awesome movie. It's not like a traditional Disney movie in which everything is all rainbows and sunshine. I won't go into the details because it's one of those movies you have to SEE to KNOW what is going on. I nearly cried; it was that fucking awesome. I am so going to buy it when it comes out on DVD.
I'm kind of scared that I may be manic because I haven't been able to sleep well, even with my sleep meds and cold medicine that could easily tranquilize a horse, and I've been spending a lot of money. Thank goodness that I had my financial aid refund check to spend this semester, and I did have some important expenses to pay like my textbooks, my netbook, my credit card, and my T-mobile cell phone bill. Yet I'm worried that I may end up having a nervous breakdown and that may interfere with graduation. I have an appointment with my counselor , Beverly, on Tuesday, and my shrink on Friday. I think I can make it until then. And I'm going to keep taking my meds. That is for sure. Even if I'm not sure of their efficacy, I'm not a fucking scientist. Maybe this is just the initial period and they're still trying to work their way through my neurochemistry. We'll see. Maybe I'm just fine as I am.
Peace always,
V
nessiegurlie at 6:31 A.M.
